worsening.

I can't believe myself sometimes. I'm such a...ditzy blonde. Or something.
Why can I not handle this?
Why is it unraveling my every cohererent thought?
I know, in my head that it won't work, but I keep saying it, and saying it to myself, and I don't understand my own logic.

I blurted it all at lunch today.
Bad news.

Now it'll be all over the school, and then he'll really find out...and where will I be?